30 day fast.....

Okay I have some photos that will be posted with this blog. I know that my brother will be leaving for his mission soon so I have been spending time with him as much as possible. Last week I spent time with him at Mt. Pisgah which a local mountain here in town. I have enjoyed spending time with him as both of us have explored Springfield/Eugene together.





Here is my brother along with a new member from our singles ward. We showed him around Springfield since he was new around town.





Okay, I have tallied my job search to a current total of 47 applications. I know that may seem like a lot, but I know that I have a long ways to go if I am to make it. I have thought over and over again about joining the armed forces, but I will do something about it. Some of the company's that I have applied towards include:

- Blizzard Entertainment








- Symantec Corporation







- USA Today









- Dow Jones





- Talecris Plasma Resources







So, I have been thinking of cleaning out my media so that I can be more spiritually in tune with my surroundings! I have found that it is hard to keep things balanced in regards towards completely avoiding media since it is major part of our lives. So what do you think - how do we completely keep ourselves clean, but not totally exiling ourselves from the world? Is it really possible to do it?

REALIZE

Okay, there have been some important questions that I have been asking myself lately from parenting to the rest of the future. Sometimes a break from our day to day lives helps us from realizing whether we are doing the things we do for the right reasons. These last two months has made me want to ask whether I am doing these for the right reasons. I know that I have placed much faith in a lot of people, and I have been told by my parents that it is okay if I let them down.

Though life does takes turns on us, it is really up to us to make that decision to stick to our plans to see whether the road that lies ahead is really real. I will try my best, for everyone that has placed their faith in me, to achieve my goals in life.

Upon coming to BYU - Idaho, I was seeking answers, and for the first time in life do I feel peaceful with myself with the answers that I have attained. My bishops have reminded me time and time again with this saying - "Tee-J, it sounds like you know what you are doing all that lacks from you is the faith."

I have reflected upon those immortal words over and over again. Truly, what does lack in me is the faith to keep going because I fear what I might discover. Could I possibly contribute towards something good towards this world? I fear that I will fail. However, I keep reminding myself that I can not fail if I had not even tried. As the reader, one might note the internal struggle that I face with myself these last few weeks.

As promised, I will do within my power to make my dreams come true. Lately, the first draft of my book is finished - all that remains is the research. I will continue to apply for jobs until this December. My goal is to apply to two jobs every day until the end of December. I have calculated that to be at least 230 job applications. If somewhere along the road that I don't receive any job offers within the next 6 months I am thinking of enlisting in one of the armed forces to make sure that I can keep meeting my deadlines. It is better for me to keep moving rather than staying stagnant.

As I live this life day in day out, I realize that this in just part of my life. This is my life. I realize that it takes passion to do better. Realization of passion is the first step towards success.

The first blog of the "the 10 year plan" and roadtrip

Okay, so this is my blog for the plans that are going to be happening over the course of the next years of my life. I promised myself that if in 10 years that if plan A doesn't work out then I am going to move on with that of my life! I know that I have idealistic viewpoints, but at the same time I know that I live in a realistic world. Thus, I will give myself 10 years to try to achieve it. That would place my age at 33 years old!

Again, here are the plans again. Please note that plan B and C are interchangable.

- Plan A starts with a novel. It doesnt' stop there. I have been always the person that likes a challenge. If there wasn't a challenge then I would be bored out of my mind. Lastly, I want to make a personal note that I write because I love it not because I want to make a huge profit. In my mind, loving something because you love something is more important than the money. I believe in the saying that money can never buy you happiness! Only my close friends and family know the extension of this plan.

- Plan B which is to have a vocational course using my degree as a backup towards my life.

- Plan C is using my degree right away.

Of course, a lot of these plans require money to start them up. Yesterday, I was asked by my brother if I really did have a plan. I told him of course, but it requires money. I told him good luck in the next two years of our lives, because he will be serving a mission, and I will be trying to achieve these dreams of mine. There has to be a lot of changes that has to take place! (These changes are written in my goals blog - the link can be found on my dashboard when you click view my profile.)

Yesterday, I bought my GREs materials which was earlier than expected. I did this to give me the chance to study for it while hopefully to get it out of the way. I do want to get towards graduate school, but I am going to need the money and the experience to get there.

Studying for my GREs start studying today. I am planning to my test somewhere in September or October, which hopefully I have some type of job then.

Furthermore, the roadtrip that I was planning this summer will have to be placed on hold. I am planning not to do it in bulk as planned it is going to cost WAY too much money. I am planning to do weekend visits instead, and what I am supposed going to do with the visits is to scrunch down the research into two to four days instead of possibly a whole week!

Here are the places that I am going to be traveling over the course of the next year for the research that I need for the novel that I am currently working upon. Here are places that I need to travel in the next years of my life.

- Stanford University (I will do this trip in August.)

- Fresno, California.

- Anaheim, California.

- San Diego, CA.

- Boston, Massachusetts

- New York City

- London, England.

I hope that I can travel towards these places within the next year! This is of course will require money. Many friends are expecting this novel to be out next year which of course can't be delivered by then. However, I am going to do whatever it takes to make my promises by delivered. I have a lot of research to do these next months.

I could only hope that everything works out.